A little nerdy and a little stupid

That is how I feel when one week I made an A on a test for class P and the next week I made a C on a test for class A, though both are testament to how much studying was done for each test. Both were first tests, and I hatehate the first exam because you don't know what to expect. Obviously I was well prepared for the P test, then a lazy spell hit just in time for the A test. Darn.

This is week is the last clinical lab with the talking mannequins--yes, them high tech dummies do talk and it's creepy. Next week I'll start clinical at the assigned hospital, donning my scrubs and meeting real patients with the hope that they don't reject me, a clueless first year nursing student, for testing my newly acquired skills on them.

Cee: "Mr. P, I'm going to give your med through IM injection."

Mr. P: "But you're a student nurse...."

Cee (trying her best to muffle the deflating sound of her self esteem) : "Yes, I am."

Mr. P: "Do you know what you're doing? You don't know what you're doing!"

Cee (thinking this is quite true) : "I have practiced many times, Mr. P. No need to worry."

Mr. P: "You have?"

Cee (omitting the part that says all practices were done only to the creepy talking mannequins at the school's lab) : "Of course."

Update on the study partner thing:

I am glad to say that I have found study partners that I feel comfortable with, though there is a catch to this: there were only the four of us when we studied for the P test mentioned above and all of us made A's. However, for the A test the week after, three more people joined us when they saw us in the study room and invited themselves in. As you can see, this contributed to the C as well because I can't quite focus with six other people in the room compared to when there were only three other people. I haven't found out how the rest of the group did as we got the grades for the A test only recently, I do know one of them got less than what she got on the P test, though still higher than the C I got.

Perhaps finding the right people isn't enough to form this ultimate study group, thou must find the right people and the right number of people. Le sigh, my quest resumes.....